“There is a kind of crying I hope you have not experienced, and it is not just crying about something terrible that has happened, but a crying for all of the terrible things that have happened, not just to you but to everyone you know and to everyone you don’t know and even the people you don’t want to know, a crying that cannot be diluted by a brave deed or a kind word, but only by someone holding you as your shoulders shake and your tears run down your face.”—Lemony Snicket, The End (via 4mbivalent)
I want to go on an adventure. An actual adventure where you just go exploring in places you've never been. Maybe a road trip where you pick a random place on the map, or a road trip where you just shout out random directions not caring where it leads you. I want to get lost with you, just wandering around and never knowing what will happen next. I want the thrill seeking, heart racing, uncontrollable laughter, crazy type of adventure. Anyone willing to get lost with me? You never know what you could find until you try.
Thinking makes me sad and I wish things weren’t this way, but they are. I don’t know what to do when my thoughts are my own enemies. I’m lost within my own mind, and maybe this is just life, but I don’t think I like it.
I hate it when the conversation dies. Or you don’t text back. You can at least tell me that you’re busy or that you’re tired instead of just never texting me back. The most you can do is text me back and say sorry or good morning after you left me hanging. I hate waiting for your texts. If you don’t want to talk to me, just let me know. Don’t keep me waiting. Don’t keep me waiting for something that will never happen. I fucking hate that.